….the only phrase I will ever need to learn in Japanese.
I was gifted a lesson, and she most definitely was.
Here I sit, as the rain lightly falls on a back alleyway in the heart of the Shibuya District, watching the uniformed school children with their umbrellas make their way to the high school down the street. The politeness of the Japanese is remarkable, as I left my hotel early this morning the receptionist refused to let me leave without an umbrella, but after much persuading and having to flash the dimples, I managed to leave without it and saved face at the same time; one should never be disrespectful to your host, especially turning down politeness. But it didn’t stop there, not a store on the street that was open did not accost me by the owner trying to give me an umbrella. I suppose it is the thing to do in Japan, use an umbrella. And they are everywhere, kind of like the city’s umbrellas, for us foreigners that is. The Japanese take even umbrella having to a crazy level, as their’s are big, colorful, anime, or just so bright it hurts your eyes. By the time I had made it a mile I finally just gave in, so as not to continue to be harassed if anything else, as I am geared for the rain.
Which brings me to the title of this post… changes. My first big change of the trip… I had to cancel Mt. Fuji. Of course it has to start snowing the day I want to hike it and spend the night. It is supposed to be below zero tonight, and they are strongly advising people like me from hiking anyway. Now mind you, I knew it would be cold. I was prepared for a winter level night hike in California (windy and in the 30s, I am prepared for that always, as I hike at night quite often, especially of late) but I was not prepared for snow flurries. Not at all. So now I reorganize, reevaluate, and set forth a new plan to conquer.
More later, but for now…
I will listen to the rain, and sip my saké… (yes, saké for breakfast so stop judging me, it is a utilitarian drink after all) …. while I watch the collection of random business men and women saunter down this alley towards places and people unknown.
So I tried… and failed. Vertical… oh I know so much better than to do that. Problem was my camera was out and I had to use my phone… again, fail.
I will be uploading this sort of video after the trip I think, as I was trying to do live recordings and seemed to fail using Facebook.
But fear not, I will be using Periscope for my ‘Live from Kyoto’ event later in the week. Check back for details on how to join the braodcast.
today I gave a beautiful girl a purple rose… and she smiled the most radiant of smiles.
It made my day, and nothing more.
| part 2 |
To refresh from my previous post, I have always seen this quote in two parts;
“At the ledge of the Abyss, the precipice of the self, the aversion of thine eyes… from the Abyss… to within the Self.”
That’s how we ended part one, on my realization that the answers to the wordless questions within me might not be found in the Abyss after all these years of searching, but might simply be found in…. wait for it….. [its a shocker]….
This silly old goose you say? Somewhere in…. here? I mean, I knew the questions were inside myself, but now you are telling me the answers too?
*insert head explosion*
| a pause now, a slight delay. life just dealt me a blow. |
| Read the post titled: Scared & Speechless |
Let me now get back to what we were talking about, picking up the shrapnel from my head explosion….. and the realization sets in of the magnitude of this perspective. Quit looking for answers out there, and start looking for answers in here.
but this inevitably leads me down an entirely new rabbit whole, does it not?
I must now start again at the beginning, at the complete absence of the Universe, and re-settle into the quiet calm of the lone. Where do I even begin, if I is what I am trying to answer?
*circular reasoning, tangent averted*
I am ill-prepared to look inside. I have spent a lifetime, many lifetimes, looking out there, foolishly focused on the Abyss.
I must….. refine. I must…. re-imagine. I must begin.
“As for me, count me in the determined company of those who choose Life and Yes, no matter what” – Robert Fulghum
I struggled to get to the end of this post.