For those of you who know me best… (mind you I don’t actually believe anyone is reading this) …know that returning to the SF Bay for me has not been met with a single smile. And this is two-fold; no smiles in, and definitely no smiles out. It comes from the realization that California is no longer my home, no longer a place I long to be, no longer a place I have any path I could call a future. I say this without a note of sadness, but more with a sense of purpose for what is to come… my future now is set before me, the path has been laid out and the winds have changed to push upon my back.
But I am here to talk about the smile from today… for that is what has prompted me to write this spur of the moment blog.
“Because of your smile, you make life more beautiful.” – Thich Nhat Hahn
For the first time since I landed back in the States, I was greeted with a smile like no other. A smile I had forgotten, to be honest, a smile I have enjoyed too often without the realization of my taking it for granted, for I have definitely taken it for granted.
But today… again I melted. Today… again I remembered. Today… again she made me realize there will be some things I will miss about this place I once planned on being my home.
You deserved the rose today, oh beautiful smile… you made my day, again.
“If the moon smiled, she would resemble you. You leave the same impression of something beautiful, but annihilating.” -Sylvia Plath
A smile like that could kill a man such as me. I am helpless from that twinkle in your eye…
I will always believe. Love from California. Always.